What a year

What a year 2020 has been!

Looking back, I was at my lowest point of life. It was hard until I encouraged myself to stop bottling up my emotions. I felt insecure and uneasy. I was very lucky to be surrounded by amazing friends and family, and I still am. This year I’ve learned that I can’t depend on my own power or strength all the time. I’ve matured enough to understand that everybody has their reasons for what they did in our life. And it’s okay.

It was hard to stay positive all the time, when the universe gave you so many reasons to cry. I managed to get through it all and only by His Grace. I learned that I need to seek in Him first to find my peace. He’s good all the time. I am ready for what 2021 has in store for me. Thank you 2020!

Seek in Him

Happiness. I used to depend my happiness on others. It’s not great, trust me.

One day you’re happy, the next day you’re messed up. I felt it. It’s temporary. The thing is you can’t make everyone happy and vice versa. I learned that only God who understands me. He knows me too well. I learned that my happiness comes from Him. Seek in Him. It’s harder when you are going through tough times, but it’s worth it. Sometimes he brings you through tough times to remind you that you need Him. Seek in Him and He’ll bring you peace and joy. And it’s eternal. Focus on Him not on others.

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”

‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Right Person Wrong Time

I loved you when you held my hands
I loved you when you smiled at me
I loved you when you hugged me
I loved you when you played with my hair
I loved the way you talked to me
I loved the way you stare at me

I loved you but I couldn’t
I loved you but I shouldn’t
If only we’d met in the future
When we are mature enough
And I believe if we’re meant to be
You’ll find your way back to me..

The Rain

It is raining
Reminds me that the earth is sad
And it is okay for us to be sad too
It is okay not to be okay all the time

The good part is rain doesn’t last forever
It happens to our sadness too
Just hold on
Things are getting better in the end

“ And he will come to us like the rain, Like the spring rain watering the earth.”

Hosea 6:3



I am deeply thankful and blessed.

God has been so sooo good to me. He lifted me up at my lowest. I believe that His love never fails. I feel like I’ve failed him many times yet He’s still here with me, knowing all my weaknesses.

Grateful for those who always have my back. Grateful for those who always support me to do greater things. Grateful for those who always believe in me when I don’t believe in myself. Words can’t describe how grateful I am.

This year has taught me well to appreciate every little things in life and taught me many ways how to cope with hard times.

Thankful. Always.

Fades away

Does love fade away? 
What makes it fade away?
Love should grow stronger
As the time passes by

That was what I thought

Why? Does it not endless?
That was what I believed
Until I felt it
When you miss the memories then the person
When you feel lonely with the person
When you put your ego first
Rather than saying sorry
Does love fade away?

It does..

Have faith

So far, I’m doing well this year. I’m trying to be better and better. Even though sometimes I do feel tired with everything. For I believe, God always helps me in every situation. He always put us in a situation we can handle. I believe God has made every step in my life, so what happens in our life that’s because of Him. All I can do is doing my best and always seek in Him. Have faith since He has made everything beautiful in its time✨

” Have faith in God,” Jesus answered -Mark 11:22

Even in our darkest, He becomes the light in our path. He won’t let us through it all alone. Don’t ever feel that we through it alone because we’re not, He’s always with us and help us by sending people that matter to us. Family, best friends, soul mate, God sent these people for some reasons. In the end, we won’t be worrying about anything but surrender it all to Him.